Hardly breath. I feel so lonely. No one care what I said, and I don't care who really listen to me either. Actually, it's all his fault. I believe I was very evil to him in our previous life so that now he did the same thing to me. Don't image too many crazy thing in your brain. The guy didn't hurt me, he didn't do any bad thing to me. He just ignore me, that's it! Maybe I should leave. Get away to a farthest corner and forget all these meaningless feelings. What I look for is love I think. But I'm not sure what love it is, so I guess I can't have it. I don't like to be alone, but I always do. Why? When can I end of life like this?
- Jul 01 Fri 2005 19:58
Alone
- Jun 30 Thu 2005 20:18
Start another phase
Finding a job is not too difficult, but making a right decision is a big puzzle. After half more a month, finally, I've settled down. These days I've been pushed to figure out what I want to do in the future. However, I have no idea even though I've chosen one of job opportunities. But I don't know I can handle it or not. Anyway, I'll see....
- May 24 Tue 2005 01:14
hungry
I'm very hungry now, but I think I won't be a fool to eat anything at the midnight. The starving feelings make me feel awake but tired. Why do I torture myself? Just like every girl do I believe. So, I don't feel guilty while I'm losing my energy and health. There is a moment I suspect of myself that I'll get ill and die soon. Was it funny? Then, I started to feel sorry to my parents and feel sad for myself. I wonder who will remeber me. Or I'll be just like a cloud in the sky..., I come to their mind sometimes.
I saw moonlight with clouds tonight. It was an amazing view, even though the dark covered the sky. The moon still shone bright and glowing. Really beautiful...
- May 22 Sun 2005 01:54
Grand Open
Traveling around the world is the greatest escape. If there are some problems that I can't travel anymore, I certainly would be very unhappy. That's why I am here.... surfing on the internet, because I'm just pretending I'm on a trip to some space. Probably, I'll meeting someone who I never thought of and hearing some interesting stories from them. ...........................................................................
Fly to a space "4 sunny holiday" !!!
